My Heart! The Stupidest Creature In This World!

And..... I'm back!!! Oh wow! Finally the monsoons have arrived in India!! And here I am.. sitting in my balcony, enjoying the beautiful scene of the showers while writing a new post for my blog with a warm and frothy cup of coffee!! Well, our heart is so stupid. Isn't it? It finds happiness and warmth in all little things. It could be the first showers or the first date! It could be a cozy hug or a warm cup of coffee or as in my case all of these! Even when we grow old our heart tends to be childish! At least in my case it will always be infantile!! That is what my mom says that I will never grow up! And maybe I don't want to grow up! As a kid I always wanted to grow up fast ( We all wanted to!! : P ) and be like my parents; independent and capable of taking all their decisions. ( The most difficult decision that I made as a kid was to choose the color of the crayon and I wanted to take family decisions!! )  Our heart is so innocent. It falls in love so fast and then it heals itself so fast. Whatever may be the condition or the situation, however tired it may be with our problems but it never stops beating, it never leaves hope!


Another silly habit of our heart is to fall in love. And yes!! Even my crazy, stupid buddy, my heart fell in love! Oops! I am deviating from the topic!! ( No worries readers!! I will soon be writing a blog on love..Follow me to stay updated..and get to know my dream love story which has almost come true!!!)
Okay! So were where we?? Oh Yeah! MY HEART! So yes, my heart did fall in love and let us call my prince charming... PD. He is a very great person. He helps me, he considers me, to describe him I would like to quote Alexandra Bracken, " He is like a stallion. Wild and kicking on the outside, but heart as soft as satin inside...."  Though he teases me, though he fights with me, though I don't know what is in his mind, I still care for him. We were asked to wait and here I am, still. Waiting. I don't know where I stand with him. And I don't know what I mean to him now. All I know is that when I think of him, all I want to do is be with him. At times my heart just wants to go and hug him while sometimes it wants to go and ask what is wrong with him! Sometimes I want to go and shout at him and sometimes I just want to stab him!! People always ask if I still like him. Honestly, I don't really know. But there is something about him that I can't let go! He is not my boyfriend, but I love the way he smiles, I love his advice, I love the way he runs his fingers through his hair, his kindness, and the times when we laugh together. I guess, I fell in love with our friendship!  My heart is all messed and confused with PD, studies, peers, family, and my heart itself!! It is bad wiring maybe! People under estimate me, even PD does and my heart wants to punch them in the face. I have made this a promise to myself and my heart that even if I don't prove my parents wrong I will surely prove PD wrong. Sometimes, instead of words your actions are the best reply!  

 

I always have this dream. New Year's Eve, I'm in the the city of love with my love, on top of the Eiffel Tower and when the clock strikes midnight, the 'love of my life' kneels down with a ring and fireworks!!! But I know that this will always stay a dream. Actually all this is not even necessary. Finding a true love in life is all that matters, so it doesn't matter if your true love proposes to you on the Eiffel Tower or in the stables!! What matters is LOVE ! Apparently the question remains how do we know who is our true love?!? Well the answer is simple! When you wonder whether love is worth the fight and then you looked at him or her and are ready for a war!! Yes; when you get this feeling it is true love! My heart, sometimes is so confident about love and sometimes it is all out of faith. But my heart will go on and on....whatever the situation is it continues to be the stupidest creature in the world who still cares for PD even when he knows that it would never be the the same. Instead I would like to put it  in another way!!

"Why do I still care for you..? Why do I still wait for you..? When I know, it will never be the same..... Why do I still think of you..? Why do I still miss you..? Why do I still have feelings for you..? When I know, it will never be the same..... Why do I still think of you..? "

Maybe because my heart, the most stupidest creature has fallen for someone! I don't know what to do with this idiot, but however it may be it is mine! All the teens out there, I've got one piece of advice for you! Let your heart out! Let it be stupid! Let it breathe! And you never know, when your heart will take you on the top of the Eiffel Tower!! Enjoy! Cheers! And until  my next post, Live. Laugh. And keep falling in Love.
  
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